Karleen Pendleton Jiménez has known that she was gay since she was three years old, and has wanted to have a baby for almost as long. But one crucial element was missing in the life of the butch Chicana lesbian--the sperm. This candid and humorous memoir follows Karleen's challenges, adventures, successes, failures, humiliations, and triumphs while attempting to fulfill her dream of becoming a mother. Though at times lighthearted, such as when Karleen considers all of the potential options for ferilization--some anonymous, some not--it is a weighty topic, and one that will change her life forever. The book is her confession of desire, humility, and a search for perfection.