This book is about loss, love, anger and redemption. It's about being a woman in a confusing, contradictory time. It's about testing the limits of a loving marriage. And it's about trying (and trying and trying) to have a baby. Orenstein's story begins when she tells her new husband that she's not sure she ever wants to be a mother; it ends six years later after she's done almost everything humanly possible to achieve that goal, from "fertility sex" to escalating infertility treatments to New Age remedies to forays into international adoption. Her saga unfolds just as professional women are warned by the media to heed their biological clocks, and just as fertility clinics have become a boom industry. Buffeted by one obstacle after another, Orenstein seeks answers both medical and spiritual in America and Asia, as she tries to hold onto a marriage threatened by cycles, appointments, procedures and disappointments.--From publisher description.