Dolki Min

I know this book explores queerness and gender issues, but as an autistic person I maaaassively related.
The feeling of constantly having to control and monitor your body, it’s positioning, movements and what it does, breaking, moulding yourself and folding yourself in ways that feel unnatural and only satisfactory to others. Having to rehearse and fit in to tightly restricted roles that feel completely arbitrary and nonsensical, and pretending those rules make any objective sense. Feeling unsafe and completely unable to reveal your true self in relationships…. hating yourself and feeling like an ugly alien outsider. It all hit very hard.

It was extremely gross and also hilarious in parts, and very brutal in exposing what ultimately is human cruelty.… (mehr)