Kacau. Ambyar. Trippy abis. Every session was a whirlpool to another dimension. Reading this was a bodily experience. Have you ever heard a song you resonate with so much your soul got yanked a bit you actually need to pause because it's that overwhelming and you need to breathe? Persis. THE INTENSITY. I was overwhelmed every 30-40 or to the point of needing a break - eyes teary, breathe quickens and all. Half of it is just robotic gibberish. But how puzzling it is plays a huge part in how it messes up with me (in a GOOD GREAT MAGIC MUSHROOMY WAY). Still, it's the most transcendental words have ever been. I read this over the span of 5 months. Antara irit-irit biar ga cepet abis, sama TAKUT. At all times, I was still recovering from the mental vortex every session has been, you know *eyeballs shaking*. Beneran harus nyari waktu juga untuk menyesap-nyesap bukunya dengan khidmat.
Mungkin damagenya segede itu buat aku pribadi karena membaca ini rasanya kaya menghayati Eden (karakter di AU aku) yang sedang terlahir kembali dengan indera-indera manusianya dan mulai mengingat memori-memori 5000 tahun lalu dari kehidupannya di bumi gitu. Mana BGMnya cucok meong lagi, Music for a Forgotten Futurenya Mogwai. Jadi berasa 3D banget sensasinya. ( )